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I'm not your average sixteen year old, well I am and then I'm not... the big difference that I have compared to most of my friends is that I'm Educated at Home.
I always have been, I've never been to school and some ask me whether I would want to, but in all honesty, I don't. I'm very happy with my life and how I lead it, I know a lot of people, probably 99% of the people I know tend to think I'm missing out on a part of my life that I should have, in my opinion I think they're talking about the social aspect. However, that's never been a problem for me; sure at times I've felt different, a little left out and sometimes I feel odd because I don't have 30+ friends at my beck and call... it's true, I don't have masses of friends, a lot are Family Friends that I know and then there are the few friends that I have and I truly adore them, I know they're the sort of friends that I'll have in 50 or so years, they're the friends that I know I can rely on, they are special.
So in my opinion (which I think counts more than everyone I know - simply because I've lived this life and all they have is an opinion) is that I'm lucky and the chance to be at home, to be Educated at home is a gift I'll be forever thankful for. Not many people get the opportunity to do what I've done, I'm just thankful I've been given this opportunity.


I've spent the past 10+ years knowing that people think I'm loopy, think that I'll never get anywhere in life, that I have no friends and that I don't know how to talk to other people... they'll always think I'm missing out and that I have no mind of my own that I'm too tucked under my Parents arms that I'm too sheltered... but the truth is, I'm just different; I can talk for myself, I can talk to people younger than me, people my age and people who are older, in fact what's probably strange about me is that I find older people a lot more interesting, I can't gossip about Paris Hilton of the newest movie, I can of course, anyone can but it doesn't interest me like other things do. I love talking about History and Politics and understanding things that I have no knowledge of; I'll spend hours talking to someone about History or anything else I'm interested - I'm not saying that I'm the only person in the world that can enjoy these sorts of conversations just that I know a lot of people find adults boring wheres I don't.


What a lot of people find strange is that not only am I 'educated at home' but that I don't have English, History, Maths, Science & whatever else lessons; I never had a reading lesson, I taught myself to read, to write and anything else I know. Basic Maths... anything I know in History I've discovered myself; through books, the wonderful internet and talking to people, having conversations. I learnt about what I'm interested in, I've learnt about a lot of things... I don't know advanced Maths or anything about Science, I'm not going to know the Maths that most of my friends do but I do know what I need to know. I know how to be a friend, I know how to ride horses (very well if I may say so myself), I know how to Dance, do Gymnastics, the ins and outs of horses, I know how to train a Gun Dog, I know how to write poetry, I know how to read, write, create a website... I know how to do a lot of things, I also know that I don't know a lot of things but what I do need to know, I find out... if I need to know what 10 + 10 equals then I'll find out, don't need hundreds of lessons to do that and if I suddenly want to become an expert on Maths, I'll go about doing so, I'll surf the internet, get tutors... it's not impossible - I don't need to go to school to know about History, Maths or anything else they teach children at school.


I know everything I'm saying, everything you're reading is something very, very few people will ever be able to understand. It's hard to be open and understand something that is so different... but this is a part of my life, I don't know if I'll ever, ever be able to explain what I've been so lucky to experience, but I can try, try and try again if this makes no sense.

So that's what I mean by I'm different and then I'm not.

I love movies, TV series, anything like that... I love watching them, I can't really stand to just sit down and watch one so instead of spending hours and hours sitting on a chair/sofa watching TV, TV Series, Movies... I tend to watch them while I'm working on Letters to you, I'll put a movie in, make it a certain size and then get on with some work, I'll be making Graphics or talking to some friends, reading emails and other things - I love this, it makes things interesting.


Other than that I love reading, due to my lack of School and the fact that I never once had a reading lesson... I didn't start reading until I was about 10, once I finally got the hang of it I couldn't stop myself from reading, I read book after book after book, I loved it so much I'd read (and still do) 1/2 books a day, I used to go to the Library and come back with two bags of books to read for a week, the Library man would look at me as if I was off the wall; people were in there getting 3/4 books and I'd be getting 20/30 books, I couldn't stand not having a book and so I'd get extra and end up reading them all.


I also love Music, I spend hours of my day just listening to it, if I go outside I'll take my ipod with me, if I go in the car then I'll always bring it, if I forget it then I get really annoyed because it's like gold dust for me. I go to sleep listening to music and I wake up listening to music. If I'm drying my hair then I have it on, it's like my best friend, I have over four thousand songs on it, all of which I adore and listen to... The one thing I'm addicted to is the lyrics, if the lyrics are good then it doesn't matter so much if the music is bad; lyrics are pretty much what got me started with my writing.


Writing, I never really thought about it, I never read poetry I just spent hours listening to music with beautiful lyrics, I would print off lyrics after lyrics, I'd read them over and over and over again, so much that I ended up memorising them, I read them so much that I was then able to picture the piece of paper, word for word... Somehow all of those lyrics helped me to write... one night I got emotional and upset about the loss of my Grandmother and things just began to flow...


I decided to show my Mother and she encouraged me to keep writing, so I did. Six months later I had 50+ pieces and I loved writing, it helped me to release my emotions, I had bottled up a fair bit of emotions over the past 1/2 years due to the death of my Grandmother and writing helped me move on, every emotion, good or bad that I had was put into words and somehow that helped me to move on. And with that I began to realise I loved writing, any type or form, I couldn't help myself.


There are many other things I feel are a big part of my life, other things I enjoy with all my heart; like riding, I've ridden most of my life, I love it, it's a huge part of my life, it's something that has taught me a lot, I won't be able to put my finger on what it's taught me but it has. I'm out riding in any type of weather, rain, snow, frost, sun... just about anything. I love working with the horses, they're beautiful animals that have so much we can learn from them. Riding & Horses give me such a lot of joy and happiness... so I guess I'm very lucky to have them in my life.

As I said above there are many more things in my life that have made an impact on my life; Education, deaths, parents, friends, horses and everything else I do... there is more I do, Dancing, Gymnastics, Websites, Writing, Swimming, Skiing, Water Skiing... but I could go on for hours if I were to write about everything.

You've read about the things I enjoy, the things I love and the things that have molded me, shaped me... I don't know if that tells you who I am, I don't know whether I can describe myself... I always think it's hard to describe oneself, I know a few friends can do it which is why I'm writing this, I was inspired.


I'm happy with who I am, I'm happy in my skin, I know so many people who aren't, it's fantastic to be able to be happy with yourself; I guess I could say I'm self-confident too, I'm also big headed, not in a horrible way, in a jokey way and yet I'm not joking... I'm not going to pretend to others that I don't have confidence, there isn't anything wrong with knowing that you're actually a decent person, that you're pretty. So maybe people hate it though, people hate the fact that you are self-confident. Why?! In my humble opinion I think it's because they themselves aren't confident and if I am that annoys them.


I'm a good friend, I try to be at least, I'm not perfect and I won't ever say I am because no one is perfect. How many times have you heard someone say that? Probably a lot, maybe because it's true. There isn't a perfect person in this whole world, all the people in it and there isn't one, not one single perfect person. I try and be a good friend, my friends mean a lot to me and so I do my best for them, I try and be there for them, I try and be the best friend I can be and in turn I have some pretty amazing friends. Sure, I make mistakes but at least I try and be the best friend I can be.


I'm what people call a hopeless romantic, I love happy endings... If I'm reading a book, most of them are romantic based ones and if I'm nearing the end at night I'll stay awake to read the ending even if I know it's really too late to be reading. I'll read book after book because I can't ever get bored of those happy endings. If I'm watching a movie I'll wait in anticipation for the ending, even if the ending is a run of the mill one and I know exactly what will happen I can't help but get caught up in it. Once it's finished I'll likely rewind it and play it over and better yet, I'll watch the whole thing again, losing myself in the fairy-tale.


Apart from being a hopeless romantic I'm a dreamer, I'll day dream all the time; in the car, when I'm riding, when I'm sitting at the computer, when I'm drying my hair or washing up, when I'm making lunch... basically when I'm doing anything. I'll dream about anything, I'll once again lose myself in another world and it makes me happy, not because my life is awful, it's far, far from that. I dream because I know I want an even better future, I day dream about my future, about how it will be. Almost like a novel, in stead of writing it, I dream about it. I love being a dreamer, it not only lets myself explore how I want my life to be in years to come but it helps me to see what I do and don't want, without even living it. My day dreams are filled with every little detail that some would find... boring. But if I dream hard enough I don't see why i can't fulfill those dreams and make them into reality.


I like helping people, if it's not my friends it's other people, friends of friends, visitors on letters to you, I'll help anyone because I know in life if the people who have helped me hadn't then I would be where I am today, so I try and help as much as possible... plus, it makes me feel good, that sounds selfish and it is, but not in a nasty way, I love helping people and helping them do/see something, we all help people and I know the helpers feel good from it; isn't that why there are so many people doing charity along with other things? So I love helping people, I get something out of it and so does someone else.


I love my life and myself as I've already said; I also love my Parents with all of my heart, they're the most wonderful people I know, I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for them. How could I be? They're wonderful people, they're honest, trustworthy and I know they are always going to be there for me in every single possible way. I don't know who would/could ask for anymore, I sure won't or need to.

And then there is my two Sisters who have also shaped me and made me into the person I am, they're both wonderful; we get along, we work together and they're a big part of my life, they are both my friends, especial friends; they're not just sisters, they are my friends... I'm so lucky to have them, I know I'd be lost without such brilliant people.


Along with my family there are the animals, Bella, Dancer (the Dogs), Tip Toes, Lula Belle, Moonlight (The Cats), Tickle, Reg, Andy, Tiger Lily, Jadey, Shadow, Smartie, Tic Tack (the Horses), I love them all; there doesn't seem to be a day where they don't bring me some kind of happiness. Animals are truly wonderful creatures, if you're upset or feeling some type of deep emotion they seem to know, especially dogs & cats, they have this strange intuition that lets them know what we're feeling. If I'm sad/angry they know immediately and they'll come over to you and comfort you or simply let you know that they are there for you.
I can't describe it but they're special and they give me the comfort I need sometimes.

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